Ego and Super Ego run the show
Once my work is done and I have given all I can give to what I really really want then there is a natural transition to acceptance that I have done my very very best and the universe will reveal if what I think I want will be granted.
One question that came up as I looked at what I really wanted was that I really really want to want certain things –
When I do commit I generally get the ultimate want… connection, love, peace….
An observation came to me at the very end. I could clearly see how I would feel my mother’s grief for her or along with her and make it my own. I saw it in my connection and difficulty in saying good bye, being touched by heartfelt good byes… being touched by Dale’s preciousness. I have willingly and honorably for my whole life held the torch for sad goodbyes and when will we meet again questions… I was trained probably not consciously to be the one who would hold vigil each day till the next connection could occur. Really simply I feel my mom’s love and pain of letting go and I feel dale’s love and appreciation for the work and each of us so deeply. Today I choose to hold the torch in a new way.
I trust the universe! or better said I really really want to want to trust the universe.. I hope to get to the REAL TRUST someday… The universe will show us the way…. And I will carry the light….I am always here and mostly always up for an inquiry with TRUE dedicated ones. I do not see that changing any time soon.